Monthly Archives: June 2010

Almost to Goal

I have struggled with my weight for over 10 years. I was never skinny, but I think I was about 13 when I realized that I was a little overweight. I have never been obese, thank goodness, but I have never been in the normal weight range either. I am only 5’2″ and at my highest I think I weighed about 170 lbs.

This was at a time when Mike and I were living with our Pastor and his wife due to Mike being out of work, and it was so much easier for us to go out and eat rather than me cook in an unfamilar kitchen. That is when my weight skyrocketed. When we moved into our own house, I started cooking really healthy meals and some of the weight came off. Then life happened, my back got really bad again and all exercise ceased. I gained almost all of the weight back.

 When I started Weight Watcher on Feb 19th, 2009 (for the….eh…5th time), I weighed 168.2. This is a picture of me when I was close to that weight. Look at my big Charlie Brown face!

It has been 17 month since I have been doing Weight Watchers. I have lost 15.4 lbs. I lose weight EXTREMELY slowly. I lose less than a pound a month. There have been so many times at my W.W. meeting when people are congratulated for losing 15 lbs. When asked how long it has taken them, most will say 2 or 3 months! I get so discouraged when I hear that. Don’t get me wrong, I am super excited for the people who have lost. I know how much of a struggle it can be.

I am only 2.8 lbs. away from my goal. This week I am going to give it all the gusto I have to lose half of what I have left. That will be 1.4 lbs. I will need to write down everything I eat, drink at least 8 glasses of water a day, and try to exercise (we will see how that goes! the last couple days have been killer with my back!) but I feel like I am focussed and excited to reach goal! I would appreciate your prayers and well wishes as I try to get these last couple of pounds off!!

I know it’s a little premature, but here is a picture of me at my current weight.

A Wise Woman Builds

This past weekend was Calvary Chapel Moreno Valley’s Women’s Retreat up in Twin Peaks. It is a yearly tradition that I go with my mom, and this year was no different. I was so excited to go and the week leading up to the retreat seemed to pass so slowly! Every day seemed twice as long as normal!

Well, Friday finally rolled around and we were on our way!

The worship was great. I sing on the worship team at my church and it can be difficult to let myself go and just worship. I am always worried about hitting the right notes, and not drawing attention to myself or being a distraction. At the retreat, I am able to let go and just sing. I learned a few new songs too that I think Mike is going to learn so we can sing them at our Bible Study.

The sessions really spoke to me. The whole weekend was about how a “A wise woman builds her house; a foolish woman tears hers down with her own hands” (Proverbs 14:1). In this instance, the “house” the teachers were talking about was actually our spiritual lives.

Robin Milhouse was the first women to teach; this was on Friday night.  She spoke about how the word “builds” in Hebrew means “working on the supporting structure”. It is an ongoing process. She reiterated that if we are not consistently giving our attention to building up our spiritual life,we are in trouble.

There were also 4 essential things that a builder must have or do.

  1. A builder must have a plan. Eph. 2:10 – For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so that we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.
  2. A builder has to choose a plot of land. She posed this question – What LOT in life have you been given?
  3. A builder has blueprints to follow. Our blueprints are the Bible. Proverbs 24:3-4- A house is built by wisdom and becomes strong through good sense. Through knowledge its rooms are filled with all sorts of precious riches and valuables.
  4. A builder has tools and materials.

Debbie Sharick was the first to speak on Saturday morning. One of the things she said was something I tucked away and definitely brought home with me. She said, “A wise woman builds her house on the foundation of her Savior’s refuge.” Christ must be our foundation. If we build our houses on anything other than Christ, when storms come, they will fall. She gave us about 10 verses to reiterated her point. Here are just a few of them that I loved.

  • Psalm 141:8 – But my eyes are upon You, O GOD the Lord; In You I take refuge; Do not leave my soul destitute.
  • Psalm 9:9 – The LORD is a shelter for the oppressed, a refuge in times of trouble.
  • Psalm 91:2 – This I declare of the LORD: He alone is my refuge, my place of safety; he is my God, and I am trusting him.
  • Psalm 142:5 – Then I pray to you, O LORD. I say, “You are my place of refuge. You are all I really want in life.
  • Proverbs 14:26 – In the fear of the LORD there is strong confidence, And His children will have a place of refuge.

What awesome verses to declare and build your foundation on! I am planning on printing some of these out and hanging them all over my house. When I feel overwhelmed by the storms of this life, I need a reminder, right in front of me, to hold on to!

Marcia Krantz led the second Saturday Morning session. I must admit, by this time, my eyelids were extremely heavy and my page of notes is mostly doodles to stay awake, BUT! I did come away with plenty of wisdom from her session. She spoke about how wisdom comes from hearing God’s Word and being obedient to it. She gave us a few ways we can actually do the building in our life. Some of the ways were reading our Bibles daily, taking notes during church and living a Godly life. She said we must build on Jesus and not the world. Only in the Lord can we have safe refuge; if we are living in the world, acting just like the world, our foundation is not Christ, and when storms come, we will be tossed to and fro.

Robin taught the last session on Sunday morning, right before we were to go home. She talked about how we need to be willing to let the Lord do the renovating and remodeling in our lives. He is the master builder and knows what He is doing.  The process may be painful and uncomfortable at times, but when we come through it, we will be closer to the Lord, living our lives according to His Word, and more in Him image than we could have ever dreamed!

Over all I loved this retreat. I suppose I went into it thinking that it was going to be more about building our actual homes, how we can be better wives, mothers, how to make our home a sanctuary for our families. I was not disappointed by what I learned, but I wish that someone would have touched on how the women is the thermostat in her home. Her attitude determines the coldness or warmth in her home. When we have a relationship with the Lord that is close and as He desires it to be, our home, whether we are single or have a big family, will be a place of refuge and warmth for the people we love. So let’s get to building!

Grandma Dolan

I started reading Genesis this week. I have read it before, but I am so interested in the stories that I want to read it again, paying attention to the details. Today, I was in Genesis 5. The first verse says, “This is the book of the geneology of Adam.” I thought, “Ah Man, I hate reading genealogies!” But then I remembered I was going to pay close attention to the details and read on. Chapter 5 lists from Adam to Noah and the amount of years that each person lived. As I read, I was fascinated by how long people lived.

  • Adam lived 930 years.
  • Seth lived 912 years.
  • Enosh lived 905 years
  • Cainan lived 910 years.
  • Mahalalel lived 895 years.
  • Jared lived 962 years.     …….and so on!

These people lived approximately 10 times as long as we do now. Then I started to wonder if these people accomplished everything they had wanted to in their incredibly long lives.

It also made me think of my great grandma, Grandma Dolan.

She passed away when she was 96, just short of 97. She passed away about 6 months before my wedding. I never thought she wouldn’t be there for that. I remember having to call the florist to tell her that we didn’t need as many corsages. What a sad day. I wore her pearl bracelet for my wedding.

 I wish I would have sat down and talked to her more when she was alive. She had great stories. I love the one about when during the Great Depression, they could not afford stockings, Grandma Dolan would rub foundation (face make-up) all over her legs! Grandma Dolan loved her coffee. I remember being at my grandma’s house (Grandma Dolan’s daughter, my Grandma Edmondson), and Grandma Dolan would ask me to re-heat her coffee….”Just 20 seconds,” she would say.  I felt like it took her all day to finish one cup, heated 20 seconds at a time! Sometimes she would call me Daisy; with as many grand children and great-grandchildren she had, it’s amazing she could remember any of our names most of the time! She had a set on her dresser with a hair brush, comb, and mirror that sat on a tray. I think my mom still has it. She always had pictures of us in little frames on her window sill, and a picture of Jesus above her bed. She slept with a velour blanket on her bed, and when ever I see one, it reminds me of her. She loved her clothes and shoes too. I wonder if Grandma Dolan accomplished everything she wanted to.

Sometimes I think we get so caught up in life that we forget how short our time is on earth. Grandma Dolan lived for almost 97 years, that’s only about a 1oth of  how long Adam lived. Thinking about it that way, Grandma Dolan’s life was short. I wish I would have told her I loved her more. I really miss her some days. She was such a sweet woman. Both my brother and cousin have tattoos in honor of her.


 I still wear her bracelet and pearl necklace. I also have a scarf of hers that I think I will wear today.

Send someone a letter today letting them know how important they are to you. That will just take about 3 minutes! Send your parents or grandparents flowers; don’t wait until their funeral. Don’t have regrets about not getting to know the older people in your life because you were just too busy to get around to visiting them. If they don’t know Jesus, tell them about what He has done in your life. Love with abandon. Don’t have regrets when they pass away. Grandma Dolan loved the Lord, so I know she is in Heaven waiting for us. I can’t wait to hear her stories again.