I am so in love with my sweet Samuel!
Every morning when I go into his room, he smiles at me, I pick him up, hug him tight and tell him, “Mama loves you.” As we walks down the hall, through the living room and into the kitchen to make a “ba ba”, I pour out my thankfulness to the Lord for our miracle baby. Yes, every morning. Our life has changed so much that it is hard to remember what it was like before Samuel came to us; it is harder, more stressful, and more exhausting than I could have ever imagined, but it is also more wonderful, joyful, and fulfilling too. I always knew I wanted to be a mom, now I am certain this is what I was meant to be. I was telling Samuel this morning that he will never understand how much I love him until he has a child of his own, and even then, I think a mother’s love is different than a father’s love. I hope one day he fully understands. As a mother, I can now catch a glimpse of God’s love for me. When I think about it I get so overwhelmed.