My husband has the final decision in our home. He listens to my input, but we believe that as head of our home, his decision is the final one. Sometimes I struggle with that, especially if I don’t agree with his decision. The day to day decisions he pretty much leaves up to me since I’m home and it’s my responsibility to keep life running smoothly, but when there are big decisions to make, ones that can alter our life drastically, such as a new job, making big purchases, it’s his final decision. Until now, praying for him and reading through this chapter, I have never realized the weight of responsibility he has. He needs my prayer; and with sadness I admit I have not prayed for him enough in this area.
Here are a few reasons why…
Firstly, my husband is extremely indecisive. The downside to this is that he takes so long to make choices, driving me crazy (me, being extremely decisive), but the upside is that there is wisdom in weighing all the options and giving The Lord time to work in a situation. Patience is not a gift of mine, but God has given me a very patient man who continually shows me why it’s better to wait on things for a while.
Secondly, the past few months have left me drained. My husband made the choice to finish school this semester, meaning he took 3 classes at one time, on top of his 3 jobs. He was rarely home, and while I understood his reasoning (get it over with as soon as possible so he could be home more), most days it didn’t make it any easier on me. Living in chronic pain, taking care of a two year old and our home by myself because my husband was gone all the time left me with more than a little resentment at times. I’m not proud of this, and I was aware of my sin, laying it before The Lord constantly, but it changed the way I prayed for my husband. I prayed that he would be safe driving and that God would give him strength to get everything done. My prayers were generic and most times not heartfelt. I should have been praying that God would give him wisdom about how to get everything done, that God would direct him and help him to make good choices while he planned out his super packed days. Even in the last week or so since my husband has graduated from school, The Lord has brought healing, in my heart and in our relationship. For the last few months, we were on autopilot. Everything got done, but I wonder if they would have gotten done easier or better if I had prayed more for him. Lord, forgive me.
I know this post doesn’t really go along with or have any content from the chapter, but I’ve been MIA for quite a while and thought I should let you know why. I would like to end with the prayer Stormie prays at the end of this chapter though.
“Lord, full my husband with the fear of The Lord and give him wisdom for every decision he makes. May he reverence You and Your ways and seek to know Your truth. Give him discernment to make decisions based on your revelation. Help him to make godly choices as keep him from doing anything foolish. Take foolishness out of his heart and enable him to quickly recognize error and avoid it. Open his eyes to clearly see the consequences of any anticipated behavior….” (The Power Of A Praying Wife, page 101)
Lord, continue to work in my heart and help me to support my husband and his decisions as he seeks wholeheartedly after You!